The past few weeks have been a bit of a challenge for me. Anxiety and depression (both very common after a vfib / ICD shock experience like I had in March) have made it difficult to function. I am incredibly grateful to the understanding people in my life, beautiful friends, excellent therapist and docs, and the other lovely folks I encounter when I get out of the house. 🙂
After yesterday’s visit with the advanced heart failure specialist, I am feeling a bit more hopeful, a bit less anxious, and hope to return to my optimistic, appreciative, joyful self soon. For now, one day at a time. Today is a better day — so I can finally post the appreciations I’ve at least managed to jot down during the past week or so. 😀
4.297. Toby’s help with our tool sorting project. Getting all the lumber on site for the step replacement project. Dishwasher, washing machine, and dryer!
4.298. Rain. Thunder. My wonderful and trusted therapist, Lynn.
4.299. Mini visit with Katie. Our fun cat water fountain. Ricola cough drops.
4.300. Coffee with Katie – and the straw wrapper heart she made for me. Sunshine. Cina telling me I’m rad and MVP. 
Time with Terri, Ellis, and Ruby. Ruby’s drawings and the flower she gave me (which is, apparently, edible and “tastes like salad!”).
4.301. Time with the kids. Painting side door. Yummy coffee.
4.302. Fun BLT father’s day party at Jeff & Laura’s. The sweet smell of sycamore trees. Puppy cuddles.
4.303. Weird Toby lounging on the chair. Visit with Duncan girls, my folks, and with Jeff & Laura all in one day. Bedtime rain.
4.304. Chicago mug. Time with Katie and Mckenzie. Encouraging doctor appointment (and Katie’s company during it!). Driving on the freeways again. Sweet texts from the awesome kids in my life. Strawberry moon on solstice.
4.305. Hope. Sunshine. Laughter.
More progress on the walkway on the south side of the house. It feels so great to be making progress on projects like this that have been neglected for years. Today we got another bag of weeds cleared out and got all the new plants in the ground.
Learning to ride this roller coaster of healing — and having so much support along the way. ❤ During the past few weeks I’ve started thinking I “should” be working more and getting more stuff done now since I’m not having dizzy spells so often and I feel okay. So, then on days when I can’t seem to do much of anything or want to sleep all day, I’ve been feeling like I’m just not trying hard enough. Ouch. Fortunately, I have some intuitive, gentle, and helpful people around me to remind me that being shocked and having your heart stop are not really like having a cold… and maybe, just maybe the effects and healing will have a slightly different schedule. Thanks for the reminder, sweet people. 🙂
Glorious visit with Sarah and Ida, plus getting see so many improv friends at today’s gathering. It had been a LONG time, so it was marvelous to catch up a little.❤
Ahaha! Comical cousins’ coordinated communications…I received cards in the mail today from both Debb and Dennis. What fun! Thanks for the giggles, youse. 😀
253. Magically reappearing things…. like my Fitbit, which fell out of its little sleeve thing some time between 7:30 am -10:30 am in one of the 3 rooms I’d been in, and which then disappeared for the day. (Srsly – we shook out bedding, checked behind and under everything, looked everywhere.) It magically reappeared ON TOP of the quilt on top of me after a nap… a quilt which had been shaken out and moved several times. Pretty nifty. 😉
252. Sunshine. What a beautiful sight!!
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