Today I’ve been thinking about habit energy. So interesting to think about things like this, and to pick and choose which ones I want to keep, which habits are serving me well. I will keep my habit of appreciating people and the big, wonderful world. I will work on releasing my habits of judgment and harsh thinking. 
Getting out for a sweet little walk this evening. I’ve been inside working a lot the past few days and really feel the difference when I’m able to get out and be in the world even a little.
Nice chat with Jeff tonight. I know he and Laura have been here for awhile now, but I am still appreciating the newness of being able to see and talk to them more often!
Audio books! They’ve been such a comfort these past few months. Right now I’m listening to Thich Nhat Hanh’s The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching: Transforming Suffering into Peace, Joy, and Liberation. So many fascinating and interesting ideas. I’m going to have to listen to it several times. I like that this book caught my attention just now as I’m learning a new normal and finding my footing. I’m making little signs for myself to help me remember to be present and mindful. Good stuff.
Hedgehog headwear. 😛
More progress on the walkway on the south side of the house. It feels so great to be making progress on projects like this that have been neglected for years. Today we got another bag of weeds cleared out and got all the new plants in the ground.
Fabulous news from my PA Amy today — I get to drive again!!! Just short distances and no freeway driving, but it feels so exciting to have a little autonomy again! Plus, lots of other reassurances and helpful info like the fact that lots of people in my situation have anxiety and PTSD issues (I’m not alone!) AND the side effect of my anti-arrhythmic med that can cause skin to turn blue is, in fact, rare. Amy has only seen one case of it in 16 years at the heart clinic. I’m SO happy to stop worrying about turning into a smurf. 😉
Learning to ride this roller coaster of healing — and having so much support along the way. ❤ During the past few weeks I’ve started thinking I “should” be working more and getting more stuff done now since I’m not having dizzy spells so often and I feel okay. So, then on days when I can’t seem to do much of anything or want to sleep all day, I’ve been feeling like I’m just not trying hard enough. Ouch. Fortunately, I have some intuitive, gentle, and helpful people around me to remind me that being shocked and having your heart stop are not really like having a cold… and maybe, just maybe the effects and healing will have a slightly different schedule. Thanks for the reminder, sweet people. 🙂
So many sweet moments today. I like the feeling that I am learning to hold the truth of the challenges in my life right alongside the truth of the beauty in my life.
Glorious visit with Sarah and Ida, plus getting see so many improv friends at today’s gathering. It had been a LONG time, so it was marvelous to catch up a little.❤
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