Woke up super crabby today and after the past week, I decided to just go ahead and have a full-on anger day. I spent most of the morning feeling sorry for myself and being pissed about the past week.

I am mad about having to get FIVE pokes in the back of my hands (yes, that does hurt) in order to get my IV placed yesterday, mad that my colonoscopy results were not good, mad that my heart doesn’t work right, and super mad that my little sister is dying. Mad mad mad mad mad.

I know that appreciation is a helpful tool, but couldn’t think of ANYTHING good. But then I remembered to just start where I am, so I came up with these three things.

1. I am not currently prepping for a colonoscopy and next one is six months out instead of two.
2. Budesonide and Azathioprine might help me avoid surgery.
3. Nothing else crappy has happened today.

But then I found that letting myself live inside that anger for a few hours lessened its intensity. And besides, something else crappy DID happen then…A 15-minute series of fortunate events this afternoon spoiled my bad mood. 😆 Here’s what happened next:

First, Mckenzie and I saw FIVE random people in a row wearing red (all of them walking on the east side of Lyndale).

Then I got home to find my Seriously Happy order from Vista Print.

And finally, Toby jumped up and settled into the box even though not all of him fits.

I mean, really. How was I supposed to stay mad in the face of those things?! 😉